I am in a very bad mood . well . it was my parents who spoil my day . Don't everytimes mood not good and take me as 出气筒. For nothing ,they scold me like as I owe them something . tell me wad yew want larhs . everything yew only know how to scold . yew ever understand how i feel anot . since I was sec 1 , yew all everyday went to work . I rarely see yew all and started to feel being neglected . during sec 2 , I started to be rebellious . result started to drop badly . I dunno wad can I do . just before end of year exams , because of encouragement from my teacher , I manage to catch up wid my sch work and pass well . growing up and 谅解why yew are working hard so I start to buck up and not being rebellious as last time . during sec 3 , although i didn't study that hard , whatever thing yew say i manage to did it . my sec 3 result still did well . the problem right when i was in sec 4 . yew all keep quarrelling day and night . I couldn't even have some peace . well . have yew all ever think that it does affect me alot alot. I never ever tell yew all this . all because of this , sometimes at night I still having nightmares . waking up in the middle of night is horrible . can yew all be considerate . and the point yew all are quarrelling is jus before my N level . my mood was so affected . my best buddy baohui understand me the best . during sec 5 , everyday yew was in bad mood like I was yr 出气筒. everyday say I can't do well fer O lv . yew are like pouring cold water . I myself started to tell myself I can't do it I can't do it . now yew understand why when i was in sec 2 and 3 I didn't like to go home at all . I became very pressured . my temper getting bad . flaring up suddenly . keep telling me to study . I am that kind of person who will keep thinking alot of matter . so from sec 4 onward , I start to make myself doing thing , soon start to make myself play online game which i start to get addicted and can't get off com. until now the habit is still here . last time i wasn't that kind who will keep using com . by using getting addicted to com is like 麻醉自己。yew all only know how to blame me . i alrdy keep 谅解you. why can't you 谅解me. money is not wad I want . I jus wanted yew all to care and company fer me . i think that isn't difficult to do it . after N lv, I start to learn bad things again . i pick up bad habit . I don't want say wad it is . ppl know i dun nid to say it out . after many friends persuasion , I kick that habit . and wad do yew think about it . I understand why bro became rebellious and mixed wid bad company . I not going to blame yew . I jus want yew to understand the situation . I jus find yew all very 过分。我心里不好受。now yew know why I only talk to yew when i nid money . i think that is nth we can talk about . everything i say , yew will 跟我参反吊. I writen this because I am just being angry . today jus feeling being pissed off . I know myself , I can't get agitated . if I really agitated , I will started to feel sick . I used to tell my frd , life is wonderful , now is totally diff view le . hais . I think I 上辈子欠他们的。well . not going to say it anymore . tmr still have to go work .
