Saturday, February 17, 2007 '
I realised I am living in a dreamland
I realised that I cannot no longer live in the reality .. I can't face a bit of setbacks .. it would be a disaster fer me ... i find myself living in a dreamland .. i am living in a world of music ... blasting it .. I dun like to face the world of reality ... I wonder does anyone know wad I want .. and able to understand me .. I just hate people to criticize me ... I really dun care wad ppl think about me .. I got better things to do ... I got a lot of things to be done .. I feel the stress ... my mood has been getting worst .. sumthing I feel lyk smashing things ... I know that sumtimes I show that I dun care but I care fer many things ... I feeling a disaster is lyk going to arrive ... I am grateful to have friends like baohui , meiyi and melina who cared fer me , my studies and everything ... I also grateful to have teachers like Ms Shang,Mrs Tan SL , Ms Shim , Ms Koh and Mdm Tan .. I know they want me to do well fer my studies .. My parents too ... My biggest regrets is that I nv work hard enough .. I know i am the kind of very last minutes of person ... i also regret of being influenced to try things that I not supposed to try it .. I know some of my friends know it .. I dun want to let ppl know .. I think they found when I am posting it on my blog ... I alrdy stop it .. but sumtimes still will be craving fer it .. I dunno why larhs ... I am glad to see kailian their studying ... hope they dun quarrel anymore.. sumtimes I stuck in the middle I also dunno wad to do ... hais .. I jus hope to disappear without anyone noticing .. can I dun face the reality .. I hate getting setbacks .. I can listen in class and do the work correctly but it came to test I would jus dunno how to do and stuck thr .. is really irritating wad .. I alrdy fail science , english .. I think my humanities also fail .. I not sure haven get back paper .. A math although i fail class test , if I pass common test I still can pass ... E math and Chinese I think I can pass larhs ... hope CA1 ,
dun fail so many subjects like last year ... I hate ppl to insult ppl using the languages when other are bad at it ... I feel bad fer peijun as she so innocent when she got insult by jane .. i confront jane why she sae that .. yew say seng loong insult yew that .. wah like that yew very Jian leh .. ppl insult yew .. yew have to use it to insult peijun and yen chin larhs .. why got this logic .. say wad " wo song ni yi gong jin of mi tian gong " ... mi tian gong .. put together is "fen" .. this mean shit ... why not yew use english .. I am sure peijun understand english .. ya I find it very bad .. ppl insult yew that yr prob but yew dun nid to use it at other ppl too right ... its not fair fer other ppl ... if I say " wo song ni yi bai gong jin of mi tian gong sai hui ni sai kang" .. see yew happy anot when ppl say this to yew ... think be4 yew do larhs .. nv think about ppl feeling de .. still can take it as yew nv say it be4 ...
