Monday, October 23, 2006 '
I am dead on 23/10/06
I am no longer the person yew all know ... I am dead on 23 october 2006 ... I am a dead corspe wid no soul ... I am really very stress about family probs ... I tell my parents dun force me to walk out of the house and nv return ... I will disappear anytimes when I really can't stand it so pls dun force me anymore... my heart already been hurt ... it will nv heal ... I dun want to face the reality anymore ... I cannot take it ... I want to tell her but I do not know how to open my mouth and talk although she say if got anything can find her to talk ... I had enough of trouble ... today I already very sad and pek cek ... jus now for nothing also kena that bitch stella Tan gan ... I not yr dog okies ... Ask me get out then I must get out meh ... also not yr class is 2/1 class her own class upstair lor ... Yew huan lo ... She dun know i was sitting at the door behind ... tiffany was arguing with Stella Tan ... say about tiffany"s handphone ... She wad screaming at them ... is not fair okies ... say wad school rules mean school rules ... Tiffany say Candice can be witness ... Then Stella say ... I noe yew all are closed to her ... dun think I dunno ... then she say ... I dun believe She nv tell story about her ... Then She say from sec 1 till now I have caught her thousands of times ... As if she got count ... I heard liao very angry ... She dunno that i was there lor ... who she think she are la .. fark yr mother la ... after that she walk closer to the back and saw me ... and say who the fella outside ... then she saw me say wow good frenz are here ... She ask whether I got any lesson ... I said no ... den she shouted get out ... I reply ... get out get out la ... yew think I want stay there ar ... I puke ar ... still say rubbish ... already very fan of smth liao .. still gan me ... I really feel like telling ** *** about my probs ... She said if got anything can find her to talk to ... how am i going to ask her ... I really frustrated ... hate me all yew want ... I am already dead ... my life has been destroyed by all kind of situation ... I am really tired of it ... I want peace and a break fer me ... I feel like I have been left out ... maybe it was ... I have frenz who concern me ... i also want my frenz to be good ... especially my darlings ... not as wanted them to be bad right ... life is unfair and cruel ... all because of it ... I hate this world ... I am no longer the Candice yew know ... dun irritate me ... Once My temper exploded , it would also be a gone case ... my mood is very very bad ... I hate it to happen again and again ... who can ever understand my feeling ... why is it so unfair ... I wish that I dun nid to go hm ... I got the fear of returning hm ... I hate it ... I am very depressed ... it would make me crazy one day ... I want the situation to be changed ... I want to control myself but I really can't ...
